Onwards and Upwards
May 9th, 2012As I was sitting in the back of the pick-up truck looking around at all the volunteers, I knew this would be my last triathlon for the foreseeable future. I had crashed very hard descending The Beast during the St. Croix 70.3 and was now being driven back to the race start by a local volunteer to receive medical attention. Reflecting on my triathlon career during that drive brought a huge smile to my face. I was in the back of the truck with another young athlete and realized it was at his age (26) that I first got in to the sport. I am now 34 years old and have so many things in my life I would like to accomplish.
As I reflect back on my time in triathlon I can’t help but think of all the funny stories I have been a part of or been witness to. It is the training days with all the great people I have met along the way that I will truly miss. Race results come and go, but the experiences will be what I look back on with great admiration.
It was not this bad crash that lead me to walk away from that sport, only the icing on the cake of what my plan had been for some time now. I knew heading in to this season that after October I would be done racing in the “professional” category. I wanted to qualify one last time for Kona and have that be my last race. However, sometimes life does not work out the way you want in to!
The main reason I am stepping away from triathlon is I have simply not liked the person I have become. Ever since my succession of injuries right after Kona in 2007, my passion for the sport dwindled. I take full responsibility for the attitude I took (we all have control of one thing – OUR OWN ATTITUDE) in dealing with my injuries. Over the years my happiness has been dictated by my race performance. This has taken a burden on my wife, my Mother and family and my friends. I have missed weddings, not even seen some of my best friends children and have not spent enough time with my Mom while she battled cancer (and lost her husband). As much as we try to deny it, triathlon is an extremely selfish sport for many. Some find that balance, but I was never able to.
I know I will miss racing/training, but I am excited for the next chapter of my life. Time to go reconnect with my friends and family.
Good luck to everybody this season and thank you all again for sharing the racecourse with me over the years!